It has been nearly a full year since I last posted on Claire’s website. I never anticipated the emotional roller coaster ride this website or being a part of the baby loss parent community would be like. I still receive emails, Facebook messages and comments from people who find their way to Claire’s story and it humbles me to know that she survives in thoughts of people all around this country and the world.
Today, I would like to announce that my husband and I are happily expecting our second baby girl, Zoey Claire, on June 28, 2012. Gestationally, Zoey is 23 weeks on the nose today- the exact same age her big sister was when she was born.
I’ll explain the full details of Zoey’s surprising conception and pregnancy thus far in the coming weeks, but one of the most special details is this: I took a picture of the rainbow above on the day Zoey was conceived. Zoey is truly our rainbow baby.
At the time of her conception, my husband and I had taken a step back from fertility treatments and active baby-making planning. Our pregnancy came as a complete surprise. I took this photograph knowing it would be an amazing coincidence if we happened to get pregnant but I didn’t consider it a possibility. I was ecstatic to learn that I was pregnant but it was also comforting to know that our Rainbow Baby was truly A Rainbow Baby.
Rainbow Baby Definition: In some circles, babies born to families after the loss of a child are referred to as “Rainbow Babies.” The idea is that the baby is like a rainbow after a storm. “Rainbow Babies” is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn’t mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.
Zoey is our Rainbow baby and I hope that you will continue to share our journey as we continue to love, grief, learn and live with Claire’s memory.